feeza idris

waarrrrggghhhh... mlm nie ak memg serabut giler2... tensi sbb ngah wat paperwork n speech...mcm mane nie...hukhuk...dah nyanyi sekuat2nya dah, siap menari lagi..tensi still ada..hukhuk....pas nie nk layan lagu hindustan lak.... at least kurang la gak..hope so..haha

hope i dapat siapkn tugasan nie ngan jayanya... xpe2 another 70% to finished up all this stuff...waaaaaaa..... feeza fighting!!!! berkorban demi masa depanmu...ingat tuh!!!!

fighting fighting fighting!!!!!!

I'm really really really didn't know what happen actually... it's weird n unpleasant n scary me to the death... waaaaarrrggghhhh!!!!!! what i can do now pretending nothing happen n just keep on moving with my OWN life... n finished up all my paperwork, invitation letter n speech...waaarrgghhh....agak ketensinan disitu....huhu, so jgnlah buat i tensi lagi ngan benda2 yg agak tidak berfaedah n berkaitan.. sorry ye kalau terasa.. i memang seorg yg SANGAT KEJAM!

now, i'm focusing on my future career..ehehehehe. i'm already create my commercial name n kinda love it very much. now in editing my shots, oh before that i wanna repair my sasa..miss u sasa..very much! after all done i would like to make my own websites... tumbler, blog,or....which one is better??? just let it be.. it's my choice n decision actually... baik x yah tanye an??? hahahahahahaha.....

hope what i want to be in the future is suitable with me.. hope it's not a wrong choice n decision... i know i can do it, just lazy @ not..ahahahaha...
pray for me... that i can make a better steps in my OWN life...feeza fighting =))))

hhhmmmm... it's nearly to the end.. everything gonna stop n will start a new task.
semua cerita yg ak tngok da abis.. tinggal citer yg x best sngat jek..
bola pon da nk abs..germany da balik..ak pon da kena balik kmpus gak..sama2 la kita naik bus ya klose..heeee
cuti sem pon da nak habis...
hari nie pon hari last ak jaga ank2 sdare ak..
semuanya da dipenghujung jaln.
nak tau x?
pg td ak nangis..huda la nie wat cik ija dia nangis...
ceritanya bermula:
ketika ak duk popok hani nak tido..huda main selimut2 kat sblah huda n dia agak bising lah..then i make a gesture ssshhhhhh to make huda silent..
pas tu.. tibe2 ak mcm dngar huda nangis.. selak2 toto upanya dia ngah diambng2 nk nagis...
bissala.. i mane leh tngok family i nangis... hati ni terlalu rapuh, pantng tngok org nangis..t nangis sama la jawabnya..
then i said to huda: huda nangis ae? cik ija bkan marah huda la.. cik ija suh huda senyap jap je..adk nak tidor.. huda g main basikal kat luar jap ae.. t cik ija tman..
huda pon kuar la.. then dia cakap: cik ija..huda tunggu cik ija nie...
smbil popok hani ak leh nangis...tragis tul lah.. then i said to myself:
ape nie.. bkan x jumpa lagi..mcm la nk pisah selamanya..kuat2!
pas tu leh plak huda masuk bilik... so dia nmpak la ak nangis... dia x cakap apa2 tp mata dia pon da mula berair..ak rase dia paham yg ak da nak balk.
then g la main buai ngan huda..
huda cakap: cik ija nak g sekolah... naik bus.. huda duk sini je ngan nenek ngan adik..
me: huda t jgn sushkn nenek tau..(dlm hati: tahan2)

smalam sdih sbb hani lak.. smbil dukung ak pesan la kat hani, yela walaupon tahu dia kecik lagi x paham apa2 tp bdak keck kan paham mlalui gesture badan..
me: hani, minggu depan cik ja xda tau.. cik ija da balik.. hani jgn sushkan nenek tau, jgn buat hal ae..
then cium2 hani, dia bg jek..slalunya dia meronta2 x bagi ak cium dier..huuuuu...sedihnya, hani pon snyap jek.. mcm memahami..
td sblum diorg balk sempat la main sama2.. smua layan ak ngan baik..agaknya diorg da paham kot..
ok..stop about that...sedih nie.. ngah menahan sebak nie..jangan nangis feeza.. bkan x jumpa pon.. kan family sndiri tu...huuuuuu

so, next week bermulanya hari yg baru...
n this sunday balik usim ngan bus.. hope semuanya berjalan ngan lancar...
n maybe this is my last post for this week... see you in new week n new day at new place...
feeza fghting!!!!